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Let’s GO!

Around the time it was announced that Pokemon Go was released in Australia – those lucky bastards – my hype levels were spiking up and down like a two-year-old waking up from its slumber to cause havoc until it has to give in to the black unconsciousness and shoot right back up until you slowly give in to the existential darkness of the reality that is this screaming, tasmanian devil of a rotten thing and then sweet, sweet bliss when it passes out and you have that one moment of relief before the cycle repeats itself. I kid you not. Between an android tablet with a completely trashed camera and a Windows phone, my hype was a roller-coaster of a thing. For days, I would see screenshots on Facebook from various friends acquaintances saying shit like, “I caught a Bulbasaur on my balcony!” or “Team Mystic!” during which I simultaneously hyped for what could be and de-hyped because Windows phone. I quickly searched for a petition for the development of Pokemon Go on the Windows OS and shared it on my social media, of course. And then occasionally google search “pokemon go on windows phone” to find a list of various petitions and rage-inducing looks-like-you’re-not-going-to-be-as-happy-as-all-these-people-haha articles which, as you’d expect, I would search for just before going to bed at the break of dawn to remind myself yet again how dark this world is.

But all this nonsense aside, I discovered that I did not actually need a camera to play the game, that that was just a silly little feature you could use to screenshot a Diglett on top of your crotch, or an Ekans on top of your crotch, or a Weedle on top of your crotch. You get the idea. I got the game and there I was, right at the cusp of putting on my imaginary cap and slinging on my imaginary bag that somehow can carry the weight of 350 items and 250 Pokemon all encapsulated in their own individual Pokeballs, no sweat. And like a first-time lazy player, I used my incense up on the first try, contemplated going for a walk then decided nah it’s too late for that.

The first outing was grueling. I workout at home. In this Delhi heat, there is no way I’m willingly stepping out for more than 30 minutes just to run around because it’s “good for my health”. So adding Pokemon Go to my workout schedule was definitely physically hard on me but wayyy more fun than deadlifting in a small room that’s about to turn into a Korean spa any time you breathe out. And we humans breathe, a lot. After that first walk around the neighborhood parks, a total of one hour, I would reach home with a pulsating headache that made me feel like my heart was in my throat telling me that this is what I get for playing Pokemon Go. I remember that first day so clearly. It took me about 4-5 hours to make the world stop moving around me and stand up without feeling like my knees would buckle beneath me.

Now before you accuse me of being weak for nearly shitting my pants after one hour outside, let me tell you, I sweat A LOT. An unusual amount for a girl, let alone a human. I sweat more than most men if you want to understand this in stereotypical terms. The term “sweat like a pig” was invented as a foreshadowing of my coming to this earth. So, if you want to feel my pain, multiply the amount of time I spend outside by 2 to 1,000,000 and you’ll get there eventually. When I woke up the next morning, my legs felt like they were lightly slapped throughout the night by entities the size of underwear gnomes like a bajillion times.

After a few more days of going out hunting for Pokemon, the headache subsided, my legs felt like they could walk 500 miles and 500 more and never so much as tremble, and I thought: this is a great time to be alive. Come Saturday, my cousins and I went to a huge park that has a bunch of deer and is appropriately named Deer Park and we caught ourselves a bunch of Horsea and I overheard this conversation, “Poliwag evolves into Poliwhirl, then?” “Uhh, I think it’s Politoed” and nearly died inside because it’s Poliwrath, you silly, silly boys! I mean, it’s both but Poliwrath is the OG. Silly, silly boys. Now that I think about it, I shouldn’t be this proud about that fact considering I’m 22 and those boys were probably still teenagers and they wouldn’t know any better anyhow. Oh well.

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See. Deer.

To this day, about two weeks into playing the game, I have walked more than I have this entire year. I feel more fit. My legs feel like they could run across water. I can go out for a long time and come back and still accompany my parents to a brisk walk around the apartment complex. Life is great.

Hallelujah!

(Was that the worst segue into self-promotion you’ve ever witness or what?)

So there you have it! That’s about all I can say about this lovely game so far. I hope to be very ripped by the end of this. And I hope people will understand how the times that we live in with 24-hour media coverage and the need to sensationalize are most probably affecting their perception of ordinary things like this game and I’m sure a lot of other things. Don’t adopt Newt Gingrich’s ‘feelings’ policy for facts. Never forget that facts are right at your disposal and never be too lazy to check for bullshit. Because that shit stinks.

Peace. Let’s GO!

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Best of September (Art Dump)

Well, seems I’ve been neglecting this blog for a little while. I’m trying my best to think of things to write about but nothing really exciting is happening in my life at the moment.

But guess what? September’s gone by in a flash and that means it’s time for another art dump! This time, I’ll filter out my best pieces of the month because I made quite a bit of art AND I have 300+ watchers on my DeviantArt account now which is a pretty big milestone that I am very thankful for.

Let’s-a-go!

Art

Magneto

Magneto

I made one more X-Men character and that was that.

Gollum

Gollum

One of the things I took on in September was The Lord of The Ring. This is the first portrait I did with regards to the theme. I hadn’t read the books yet so I decided to take it upon myself to tackle the literary universe as well.

Gandalf

Gandalf

Sir Ian McKellan no. 2. This portrait took a few days due to laziness and a ton of lines to draw. I’m very much happy with how this one turned out. I had a whole piece envisioned in my head and the hatching techniques I used with varied shades were very helpful.

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One of the things I wanted to highlight in this series was the orcs and goblins. I play a half-orc in my current D&D campaign so perhaps that’s what brought on this fascination with the earthly race. You will also notice from here on out that I delved into the realm of dark and creepy things.

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Some more lovely orcs ❤

Denala

The other thing I did in September was that I opened requests for a short period for practice and for appreciation for the 300 watchers. This is my favorite piece from the requests I did. It’s based on someone’s Pathfinder character and it’s also the first ever anthropomorphic beast I’ve ever painted and I had a blast doing it and I’m hella proud of it.

TThe Light

Another one of the requests; a recreation of my favorite scene in Tangled which is also my favorite Disney movie. I had no idea if my minimalist style would work with the lanterns but I found a way!

Pocahontas

I made this two days ago and that’s probably cheating considering that it’s already October. This was the last request I did and again I’m hella proud of it. I made it in this style to commemorate Inktober as well. If you don’t know what that is, it’s a little project that Mr. Jake Parker initiated to help him out with inking and to also spread the ink love to artists around the world. For more information – cuz’ I ain’t doin’ it justice enough – check out his website: http://mrjakeparker.com/inktober

Darkness Toto

The third theme for September was The Neverending Story and Legend. I’ve got two very good friends on Deviant Art who requested these pieces and who are very much engrossed in the 80s fantasy movie era WHICH I HAD ABSOLUTELY NO KNOWLEDGE OF. I had no idea all these wonderful movies actually existed. I urge you seriously, if you haven’t seen Legend (1985) go watch it. You will be blow away by the set and the costume and makeup. My mind’s still blown.

Music

I’ve been struggling with writing a good song this past month. Now that it’s October I think I’m finally onto something. In any case, here are two covers that I think are pretty good if I may say so myself. “Dazzle” by Oh Wonder which is a kickass song from an up-and-coming kickass British duo. And “What Sober Couldn’t Say” by Halestorm which is my favorite song from their latest album and which I also think is their best written song.

AND I put up a video. Do a bit of ‘rapping’ if you can even call it that.

And that’s a lot of information packed into one post. Damn. Stick around for the end of the month to see what I’m upto and check out my DeviantArt gallery to see other things I did in September!

Echo out.

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August Art Dump!

So here we are again. Yet another month has gone by and more art has been made 😀

Since I consider many things to be art – painting, drawing, sketching, writing, music, theater, dance, film making – I would like to add other features to this art dump and all art dumps in the future. For this month, this means I will also be showing you the songs I’ve covered/made.

If any of these pieces interest you, feel free to check out the rest of my gallery here: BOOP (opens in a new tab). Thank You!

So let’s-uh go!

Twenty One Pilots

Twenty One Pilots

I wanted to make a poster – prints are available for purchase on my Deviant Art account! – so I played with the idea of the color red which these two have been very much promoting in their latest album Blurryface. Also, this was a commemoration of my obsession with the album. My all-time favorite track from it is “Message Man”. I can almost nail the rap.

Put me to sleep evil angel

Put me to sleep evil angel

I haven’t made too many artworks inspired by music this month. This is one of three. Inspired by “Evil Angel”, my favorite Breaking Benjamin song.

Ooh la love

Ooh la love

I referenced Marion Cotillard for this one. I like playing with geometrical, solid shapes so this was the time I discovered what I could do with boxes! Also, you may notice I’ve been playing with lighter colors, mostly greys and pastels. The song here is “I Would Do Anything For You” by Foster The People.

For you I'll always take a bullet

For you I’ll always take a bullet

The last of the music inspired pieces. This one is inspired by “Bullet” by Ryan Star. This is one of a few selection of songs that I can listen to on repeat, which is exactly what I did as I was making this piece, so that I might be inspired by colors that I hear and feel.

Lined

Lined

I love hatching and cross-hatching and if you may have noticed a LOONG time ago with my St. Leia piece during my Star Wars craze, I used a similar technique to create this piece. This time I went free hand because the line tool in Paint Tool Sai takes forever. Plus, you’ve gotta get it perfect since it is a tool for perfect lines.

While You're Sleeping

While You’re Sleeping

For this piece I used a photo reference to a picture my father took on a trek we took last year to Sapa in Vietnam. This month to me was all about mood and landscape so with that in mind, I wanted to create a more detailed landscape than usual with my signature minimalist style.

Sapa Valley

Sapa Valley

This is a less detailed Sapa. Just a bunch of clouds floating around.

Dragon in the sky I can fly twice as high

Dragon in the sky I can fly twice as high

What initially got me into landscaping this time around was this notion of giant creatures in the sky against a fairly normal scene. This is an electric pole outside my house with a bunch of crows perched on top. And I also like to find shapes in the things I see – I made a month-long doodle once because I saw a face on the bathroom ceiling – thusly, the might needle-toothed cloud dragon was created. And yes I realize it looks rather phallic.

A Gojira sunset

A Gojira sunset

The last piece I did in accordance with the landscape + beast theme. I shall do more upon the request of my buddies. This is Tokyo, and a picture that I took, thank you very much. So obviously, I had to put Gojira in there.

Three

Three

The last creature I made this month. These are three seagulls. With three eyes. In three red boxes. Using three colors: white, blue and black. Yeah, I’m very meta when I create. 😛

Kaya

Kaya

I was looking through an old sketchbook of mine and found a watercolor piece of Kaya Scodelario during my Skins phase – which is a great teen drama UK TV show if you don’t know – so I decided to redo it.

Hugh Laurie

Hugh Laurie

And one with Hugh Laurie because this face is priceless.

Wolverine

Wolverine

When I go through a creative rut, I recreate scenes and posters. This is what happened on this day.

Rogue

Rogue

And this day. Also, I discovered there was a Rogue Cut to Days of Future Past. WHY DIDN’T ANYONE TELL ME THIS?? If I could be any one of the X-Men it would be Rogue, so surely someone should have told me this >_>. In any case, I love Anna Paquin and I love her portrayal of Rogue.

Waking Up

Waking Up

And lastly for art this month, a self-portrait (I try to make at least one every month to let you know how I’m doing) in remembrance of the extreme lethargy I experience during the month of August. I stopped working out, I think I slept for forever and I would have gone the whole day sleeping if I could, and I started midnight-snacking which is no bueno. So I used by lovely pastels mixed in with some electric neons so that I can finally bloody wake up!

To end this post, let’s music!

Pretty self-explanatory. 2 covers and one original. The original was written as a song about loss, but in a way that’s aware that leaves you okay with yourself and the other person in the end.

PHEW! And that’s all the art I made this month. Stick around next month for another ginormous dump!

Echo out.

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July Art Dump!

I have been so very dedicated to my art and paintings this month, putting up a painting almost every night on my Deviant Art account which you can check out here: BEEP

On top of that, I resumed writing poetry and it has been such a blessing. I wrote a short story called ‘She‘ which got a Daily Deviation feature on Deviant Art which is a daily feature a few chosen community leaders pick out and let me tell you, I was so stoked! It’s probably the nearest and dearest fictions I’ve ever written.

The themes of my paintings this month have been music and movies.

Inspired by VERSA's 'Neon'

Inspired by VERSA’s ‘Neon’

Inspired by Lord Huron's 'She Lit A Fire'

Inspired by Lord Huron’s ‘She Lit A Fire’

Inspired by Fickle Friends' 'Paris'

Inspired by Fickle Friends’ ‘Paris’

He kinda reminds me of Bono

He kinda reminds me of Bono

Wanted to do a Rorschach effect. Inspired by PVRIS's 'Holy'

Wanted to do a Rorschach effect. Inspired by PVRIS’s ‘Holy’

Inspired by Sixto Rodriguez's 'Crucify Your Mind'

Inspired by Sixto Rodriguez’s ‘Crucify Your Mind’

Inspired by White Lies' 'Lose My Life'

Inspired by White Lies’ ‘Lose My Life’

Inspired by the music video for Bad Suns' 'Salt' which is so beautiful

Inspired by the music video for Bad Suns’ ‘Salt’ which is so beautiful

Painted this for a sixth grader during a house warming party. She didn't like it.

Painted this for a sixth grader during a house warming party. She didn’t like it.

Inspired by Crosses 'thholyghst'

Inspired by Crosses ‘thholyghst’

Inspired by Marina + The Diamonds' 'Blue'

Inspired by Marina + The Diamonds’ ‘Blue’

Inspired by Two Door Cinema Club's 'Handshake'

Inspired by Two Door Cinema Club’s ‘Handshake’

I started with an outline and then painted in the colors. Then I played around a little and decided it looked way more interesting without the lines.

I started with an outline and then painted in the colors. Then I played around a little and decided it looked way more interesting without the lines.

The original I painted

The original I painted

What it came out as when I inverted the colors. Totally unexpected.

What it came out as when I inverted the colors. Totally unexpected.

Cinderella! Such a beautiful movie. I can put it right up there with Maleficent in terms of beauty and aesthetics but this one's so much more dear because it doesn't stray too far from the original animation

Cinderella! Such a beautiful movie. I can put it right up there with Maleficent in terms of beauty and aesthetics but this one’s so much more dear because it doesn’t stray too far from the original animation

"I'm a Catholic whore, currently enjoying congress out of wedlock with my black Jewish boyfriend who works at a military abortion clinic. Hail Satan, and have a lovely afternoon madam."

“I’m a Catholic whore, currently enjoying congress out of wedlock with my black Jewish boyfriend who works at a military abortion clinic. Hail Satan, and have a lovely afternoon madam.”

I was a bit feverish one night so I made some Camomile tea and watched Kill Bill Vol. 1

I was a bit feverish one night so I made some Camomile tea and watched Kill Bill Vol. 1

A Duel of Vipers: Cottonmouth v. Black Mamba

A Duel of Vipers: Cottonmouth v. Black Mamba

A self-portrait. It's subconsciously red because it was that time of the month :P

A self-portrait. It’s subconsciously red because it was that time of the month 😛

WHEW. That was a lot to dump.

So basically, a lot of paintings inspired by songs and a few inspired by movies. Kingsman was amazing. Obviously, had to watch a Tarantino movie afterwards.

I’m already seeing a shift in themes for the coming month. I watched KickThePJ‘s video announcing a super cool series he’s doing called Oscar’s Hotel, a sort of spin-off of a short film he made by the same name. And as a dedicated subscriber for five/six years, I feel so immensely proud of how far he’s come and I hope the series does extremely well. It will be released on Vimeo and it will be fantastic because Jim Henson. Yes, the Jim Henson Company helped out in the creature creation process (think Muppets and Where The Wild Things Are). I know.

With that in mind, I decided to break out a few of the doodles I made on the back of my notebooks during college of weird skeleton creatures and other hellish beings in the hope of creating a small world of my own with creatures of my own. I finished rendering one last night:

"Oh hold me closer, Tony Danza"

“Oh hold me closer, Tony Danza”

He’s a skeleton that likes to dance. You’ll know he’s there because of the fabulous pink smoke he emerges out of.

And so forth.

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Dear Universe #6

Dear Universe,


It’s been a while since I last wrote you. Everything’s been a bit hazy since then. I’ve produced painting after painting, the final exam results came out and they were kickass, I made a few videos that I will cringe at for eternity, I’m socializing in the real world step by tiny step, and today you really had my back. I believe in you, dear Universe. I love you to bits.

Dear June 3rd,

You were the day I started talking to someone so wonderful and smart. Something finally stirred inside this rickety chest of mine and it gave me beautiful hope for the future.

Dear June 7th,

You were the day I realized someone was too far away. You were also the day I was wide awake in church because my thoughts were so preoccupied. On a day kept aside for faith, I also doubted heavily and I should have known right then and there.

Dear last week of June and first week of July,

Thank you for completely stripping the nerves off my body. I had the revelation that friend-zones aren’t always the worst. And despite the feelings that died away, which my white blood cells fought to extinction, I continued talking to someone because someone was fascinating and funny. But the dick jokes and sexual overtones were sickening me. And when someone’s smoke high got the best of him, tried to push me away, I should have sped off. Godspeed, my child.

Dear July 16th,

You were a weird morning. I could feel that someone was nitpicking for an out and someone got it; over a ridiculous assumption a week after someone said, “you don’t know me.” Well, YOU don’t know me.

I never said anything, never wanted to assume anything of you but since you’ve started it, here goes:

Maybe grow up and stop smoking so much. Maybe cut the crap yourself about art and its pretentions. Maybe if you really were indifferent and you didn’t care, you’d shut up about it. The iteration and reiteration of not caring is caring. Maybe stop talking about dicks and vaginas. Maybe spend less time on a site full of teens and preteens without actively contributing yourself because you sounded exactly like a twelve-year-old at the end there. Maybe shove your conspiracies up your ass once in a while.

But I kept my mouth shut and let someone finish a – most likely – smoke high rant. Essence of supreme clarity, I call it.

And I was so fucking happy it was over. There was my one and a half month of something new and exciting in a single click of the “Remove” button. So long sucker. Now I can finally sleep without the anxiety of waking up to someone who makes me doubtful of myself.

I never said anything with a double-meaning. And I told someone I would never do that. But still, that someone assumed too much.

And then you, July 16th, you beautiful heart you, you (I know that’s a lot of you’s) had my back. In the midst of the confusion and utter disbelief on my part, you surprised me with a lot of love on something I put my heart into. And my hope grew stronger.

Sincerely, Grateful for the experience and the memories

Dear She,


You were a short story I’ve spent the most time working on. You took me a while to finish but the payoff was and is amazing. You are a short story about my parents’ love and about the things I want to look for and avoid in love. And it hurt my heart and soul to write you. But today, you were featured on an art website (you can probably guess which site since I mention it in my Art section A LOT), and now more and more people are reading about my love. And I am so thankful that during a time of uncertainty and just bizarreness, you were there to hold my head in place.

Sincerely, Grateful to the end

Dear Art and Music,


Thanks for sticking by my side day and night. Maybe our search for something deeper in you is futile because it all comes down to a deep and never-ending black pit called Death but I refuse to believe in a life wasted just because there’s something ugly waiting at the end of the tunnel. And perhaps no one will ever see your art or listen to your music; that is no reason not to create. We leave a part of our souls in everything we do, even in the boring things like mathematics and your grandpa’s old war stories, and we connect. Nothing shows hope and connection better than Woolf’s Mrs. Dalloway. Those are the values I live by. Superficial or not, I am stuck with you.

Sincerely, Grateful to humanity

Today’s letter has been a bit hard and a lot easy to write. I’m glad we could talk about, Universe. Until next time.

Yours Truly, Echo

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Beast

Beast 2

Oh dear
Can you come closer?
Oh dear
I don’t bite.
Oh fear
I don’t know how to react to this mental exposure
And my heart’s putting up a fight.

My gut is hanging out;
I have no exoskeleton
To cover my wounds, cover my scars
And the ticking of empty hours.
Your gaze can destroy
So take a look.

Tell me you see a different girl –
A creature of the night.
Tell me her blood is dark as wine –
Something you drink in the light.
You see the whites of her eyes
A color too bright:
A beast that will fill you with fright.

Oh dear
Are you looking for something
To hold onto
Something like a sharp knife?

You are the animal;
I am the beast you made of me.
Without your love
I couldn’t fall to my knees
And rest on your bed
Without the voices in my head.

Tell me you see a different girl –
A creature of the night.
Tell me her blood is dark as wine –
Something you drink in the twilight.
You see the whites of her eyes
A color too bright:
A beast that will fill you with fright.


 

Another song I wrote about a month back. I’ve been writing a lot of songs lately so I thought I would at least share some lyrics.

It’s quite rough but if you would like to actually hear this, you can!

Thank you and have a wonderful day/night.

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Dear Universe #4

Dear Universe,

This week was (finally) the beginning of my study break. I have one more week and then it’s exams all the way!

I’ve got mixed feelings about this blog…more like missed feelings. Maybe it’s the effect of staying at home but when you’re lying about in comfort, nothing really happens does it?

Dear Avengers: Age of Ultron,

Wow! I watched you on Wednesday with my brother on his day off and I’m still thinking about what I saw. I don’t know which is better the first or the second. You know, we as an audience really owe it all to the genius that is Joss Whedon. The weight and worth of any TV show is always dependent upon its writers and that is no less the case for movies. Now, we all know that Mr. Whedon is a comic book mastermind and I feel the reason why I can’t choose between the first or the second movies is because of consistency. Every time there is a change of regular writers in a TV show, the balance shifts and some people on one half fall off the scales. That’s exactly what happened to Community. Thankfully, they brought Dan Harmon back. Whew!

But it was more than just consistency. Despite bringing in new characters, the new information we were exposed to was not at all overwhelming in any way. It did not turn out to be a cameo overload like the first episode of Gotham was –groans– but these introductions were done so naturally. We already anticipated them in previous movies. Not only that but they brought in Guardians of The Galaxy so neatly with Thor’s epiphany and oh-so casually mentioned Wakanda.

I still don’t know how to feel about Bruce and Natasha.

Pietro’s hair was phenomenal.

Clint mentioned one of the most profound lines in cinema history: No one uses dining rooms anymore.

I’ve never seen such beautiful hand-wielding but Wanda blew my mind to bits with her glowing red hands.

And Pietro’s hair was PHUH-NO-ME-NAL!

A little tribute I made.

A little tribute I made.

Sincerely, someone whose money was well spent


Dear Brain,

Hello you. I think it’s high time you stop narrativizing and conceptualizing every single thing you see to make more art and writing and start actually studying like a good little brain. Yeah?

Even though that’s never gonna happen. Wishful thinking never hurt no one…

Sincerely, Exam Season


Dear 2016 & 2017,

I just saw this last night:

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Are you seriously going to take all the cash out of my wallet like this? With absolutely no second thoughts?

PS: 2017, Fantastic 4 II? Really?

Sincerely, someone who will be asking for alms real soon


Dearest Bella,

I’m glad you contacted me yesterday. It’s been a while since we talked right?

I’m so happy for all the wonderful things happening in your life. It’s funny how back in the days you were the one in our group obsessed with boys and the girly things in life and now you’ve truly become a woman and for that I am so happy and proud like a mother watching her children get awarded by the President or something.

Yours truly, Esther


Dear Re/Award,

Stop constantly confusing me. You’re wrinklin’ my brain.

Sincerely, The language functional part of my brain


Dear Car Radio,

Too many commercial breaks, not enough songs. Amiright people? Amiright?

At least it’s be better than this:

I have these thoughts
So often I ought
To replace that slot
With what I once bought
‘Cause somebody stole
My car radio
And now I just sit in silence

–(“Car Radio” by Twenty One Pilots)

Sincerely, a population that doesn’t need your products shoved down its throat


Dear Future,

Please don’t make me laze around all day. I mean I don’t technically because I do things…on my laptop. In other words, please see that you push me outside to the social world. Sure, I may think socializing is stupid but the truth is, when your mind connects with someone else’s even in a superficial way, your thoughts start churning and those rickety wheels in your head turn to inspiration.

The best things in life are almost always a surprise, unknown and unplanned.

Sincerely, person in the present


Dear Administration Systems,

I want to address this to the administration systems in Delhi but really this is a problem that we face everywhere in the world. Why do your employees insist on being so inefficient??

I spent 4 hours in college today trying to get my exam admit card and still didn’t get it.

When someone tells you to come back on Tuesday but then says something can be done in 10 minutes, you know there’s something truly wrong when their first response was to procrastinate.

Sincerely, disappointed with the system



I’ve been thinking so hard of what else to address but really I haven’t done much except for spending more than half my days just painting on my laptop. Need to get out of that.

But I’m only doing it till May 4th, I promise.

Yours Truly, Esther